Bubble.

I live in a BUBBLE. And I know why - it is safer there! Just like it was safer, less complicated in mom's womb.



Today, when it felt that the sky is falling, I came to the only place available for me in Ghana, where I felt like in a safety BUBBLE. And after few hours of tear wracking conversation with family only, seated in the Bubble...I am feeling much better now. The BUBBLE gets quieter and quieter as the down comes closer, and still - it is the only place I felt safe at.


Thank you is not the word in this situation...

'Safety blanket'

I keep telling myself to suck it in. Quietly to sit on my bed set and wait till its over. I tried. I even pretended for few days. I really tried. This morning I bombarded, exploded - I do not like GHANA anymore. It is too unsatisfactorial. Everything and everyone drives me crazy. I do not have any comfort of the familiar anymore.

Have got one person here that I know for almost a year now, currently sitting by his side and typing this...feeling like at least here, in the AFS office, the world is safe and Ghana is not mean to me. 

I am lacking familiar things. Things and people around me, change to soon. I do not have the chance to attach myself or maybe I do not do it on purpose. Not sure. Either way, I am missing my 'safety blanket', not even sure what or who it is. Lacking to be understood and supported. [don't get me wrong, I have amazing friends and I have not yet spent a day on my own, but it is different.] For now, my safety blanket is my friends hoody. Something familiar and comforting...


but what happens if I have to take it off at the end of the day?

It sucks.

It all went so well today - everything was working out and I felt like a superwoman again. Landing jobs, signing up for classes...and on my way home, I felt a bit wobbly, dizzy and my body was in a lot of pain. Got home, collapsed on the sofa and watched how my fever rose. Got taked to clinic, which was closed, got fed and tried to sleep... 5 hours latter, I am still sweating and feeling ill, hopping that it is just some 24h flu, rather than the evil malaria. It would suck.

I mean it sucks alredy  - to be ill, sweaty and weak. Feeling new pain in different muscles every few minutes. Lets hope that the sleep will heel me.

In Latvia, we believe, that when you get ill, your body says to slow down... I m just not quite sure what should I take a brake from at the moment? Emotional brake down? I would love to be able to take a brake from that.

Wish me luck and off I go to bed.

Another wish came true. I am going to be a student again!

My friends know, that for years I have been applying and getting into the Amsterdam University, but every time I chose a different option. I had Amsterdam on my dream map last year, in the center, thinking that in August 2010 I would move there and dive into the academic life along with other MA students from around the world. Instead I ended up in Ghana.

Last week I got an e-mail from Brussels, promoting Human Rights education online course and call for participants to apply for scholarships. I pondered on the idea, read about the course and applied. I was aware that it is lead in cooperation with multiple institutions, but did not know that lead professors and couches would come from AU.

I got it. I got accepted last night and in the welcome letter I recognized the AU logo! ;) So after almost 3 years of thinking about AU, I accidentally am studying in it! hehehe Not for long, but long enough for me to power up my brain with some 'brain food', challenge myself and people around me and dive into something new. It is an intense 5 weeks course online on Global Education with focus on how to teach Human Rights. Despite all my twists and turns, I believe I will always stick with Intercultural and Global education, one day being the power woman of a big international NGO! :) (keep sending me the job offers, if you see any! )

Life is full with mysteries and surprises, when you least expect something, this is when it hits you! I love it!

Keep dreaming and wishing, and one day all of it will become a reality! :)

Natural disasters

I sit here in Ghana and every week, mostly via my friends' updates in FB, find out about new natural disasters, that strike the world. Every week a new region is hit with something and people are killed. Where there are no natural disasters (Australia, New Zealand ), there are protests. Where there are no protests, and idiot decided to kill someone for chewing the gum too loud (in France) or eating popcorn too loud during a movie (in Latvia). Lives are taken away and people are left in sadness, sorrow and pain.

I am very lucky in that matter, I come from a country that has a pray incorporated in it's anthem and many people believe that it protects our small country from natural disasters, that we are safe (unfortunately nothing will ever protect us from idiots leading the country). And here in Ghana, which is considered to be one of the safest and friendliest countries in Africa, I feel safe and blessed. Even when at night a taxi driver is taking me home in his hardly-moving, self made car. Cause he droves me up to gate and makes sure I get in the yard, only then one would pull away. (Of course there are occasional idiots, that complain that my street is too wobbly to even enter it, but in that case I enjoy the night walk pass the lit gates and palms on our street, wondering if the stars and moon look the same in Latvia. It is all good.)

And yet, what is happening around me in the world leaves me wondering what is going on in the world. It is not like I just started to think about it now, simply have been a bit busy and lost in the admiration of Ghana. But what is going on? Is there more we can do?

I am worried, mainly because I am very aware of the fact that I do not live in a small community, but the world is my home and a lot of these things are personal to me, since many of my friends come from the countries mentioned above. I sat through the revolution in Egypt, I prayed during the tsunami in Thailand in 2005, I read updates on Australia every day... it is no longer a far far place for me, it is something that means. It is personal. And yeah, sometimes I wish it wasn't, and I could just not care... but I do.

Awsome foursome

Last Friday I went out with my girl-friends in Accra. It was such a great night - to eb surrounded by inspiring, independent and confident women.

We met at 9pm, some dressed in black, small dresses, some in other small dress - ready to experience a night out in Accra, without our boys and much clue as to where the night will take us. I am happy I manage to surround such people and experience new adventures with them.

Louisa is young professional from Britain, with backgroud in Sustainable Banking and future in documental film making in Africa. She was my 1st girl friend here in Accra and my closest person, through a lot of happy and rough times.

Victoria is dynamical, with an aim and clear action plan on how o sucseed. She is urban developer from USA, with roots in Nigeria. She is up to date with 'brina food' events in Ghana and always feeds my mind with some interesting topics.

Beija is my newest gem, French - Morroccan woman, currently looking for a job in banking in Accra. I found her on my sofa one evening, since she was my new housemate. And now, I can not imagine how it would be to live without her. She is a bunddle of fun, confidence and 'witch-bitch' advices, when it comes to 'how to kik a boy's ass!'.

Love them all, every and each of them brings a lovely touch to the crowd and if I could have my 25th borthday once again, I would love to have celebrated it with them last Friday!

Maybe I should consider to celebrate my 25th n two months b-day, this Thursday?! :P heheh


Life has a whole different meaning, when you have inspiring people around you!

Thank you girls, for bringing the good memories of girlfriend hood back to me!

Be thankful, but do not expect

I am still amaized every day, when people are kind to me. There are mean people and generally every one has their own problems and worries. And no matter where on earth are you, it is all the same - we all look out for oneself. And then there are few acts of kindness and pure love.

Recently more and more people step into my life with kind hart, will and power to help me. And I am still amaized by the fact, I am honored and touched that there are so many of them that want to help and do not ask anything in return. I had forgoten how nice people can be after when person had hurt me. It shouldnt be that way, one person should not poison the beauty of human race! :)

Today a friend of mine, sorted out my PC - called his mate, arranged it to be fixed. Another friend in the office gave me a hug out of nowhere. My best friend - once again, managed to make me smile, helped me to realised that I am an idiot when it comes to relationships and left me feeling, that I will learn from my mistakes one day and it  all willbe true.

I am blessed with people around me, thank you, God.

Reminder to myself in the pursuite of happiness

The five simple rules to be happy:
 

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less from people but more from God.

When there is no electricity in the capital city.

When the whole capital has no electricity, cause the main power station is doing some servicing, people live on generators, do not go to work and/or do not feel that it is a big problem. I mean for once - it is not their fault, they cant do much and for the second - if it is hot and there is no electricity, it is perfect excuse no to work! :)


Luckaly for you (cause you are getting this blog entry), my office has generator and I can even power a BIG fan, that is blowing my hair, curtains and everything else that does not have a phone or a stone on it! Lovely.

I am just a bit concern - in Europe if such thing would to happen, A. it would be done at night, B. IT WOULD NOT HAPPEN! C. If it happens by accident, due to storm or something like that - well, then we all lit candles and buy batteries. hahah But Ghana is Ghana. It is unique in all possible ways. At least now I have one more topic to talk about with the lady selling me lunch! :)

Friday is here, which means - Ediite is about to relive the moment of Sex n The Town with 4 girls, hopping 5 bars tonight!  Excited!!!